It's Going to Happen On This Trip...

It's so frustrating sometimes.

During the day, we walk around these new and amazing cities but I'm still left with a feeling of hollow failure - a yearning to finally "get it", get "lucky" and be successful in my attempts.

I give it a shot every where - cafe's, pubs, clubs, bars - hell, even at the internet cafe right now I am giving it a go, with other people watching - but it all amounts to nothing.

It becomes especially apparent at night. My solid attempts bear no fruit, whilst Matt and Hansen succeed beyond even my wildest dreams. When we're out, they'll even just do it to piss me off - to highlight my own deficiencies as a Man.

Hell, it became even more apparent when we were rolling with Andre and Nico - who are both startling naturals at it. Why is it so normal to them yet so difficult to me.

For them I guess it just comes naturally. They both say they became pretty good at it when they were young, having peers who were able to guide them on their way - tell them where they were going wrong, and in certain situations having a "special friend" to further them along in their development.

Me? I was always socially inept, pretty dorky and was never one of the cool kids.

But that's going to change.

I am going to keep at it until I finally score that home run.

I will not surrender.

I will not fail.

I WILL FINALLY LEARN HOW TO ROLL MY R's!!!!!!!!!!

SUUUPPPEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!